Wednesday, June 18, 2003

God Help Me

I know life is what I choose to make it, so please Father/Mother God, show me the way. What can I do to move forward as I should? God I really do love you. Help me to focus on sending out an energy of love. I this day am thankful for hope, hope in a better life, a better way. More opportunities to be strong. Please shower me completely with your love. Guide my footsteps along a path which you bless and maintain. Shower me with love and hope.

Whew! Things have finally slowed down here at work for the moment; but earlier we were busier than worker bees harvesting honey. I just returned from lunch; they sent me early today. I'm sorry but I absolutely cannot wait to find another job. I thank God for His grace, hope, health and all bountiful blessings even though I'm so tire of working here most of the time. There are moments that I actually want to escape from this job, and I'm so dissatisfied with my present living situation.

I love me but I long for a special someone in my life who will love me honestly and whom I'm attracted to. I'm tired of feeling like I'm the "ugly duckling" whom no one desires to have because I'm not viewed as "drop dead" gorgeous. I know that I'm loved divinely but where's my precious, all loving companion. No one wants to spend their life being alone, and feeling unloved. Yes, there are moment that I think about loving a man and then I doubt I'll ever discover someone truly wonderful. At times I really ask the question "what did I do wrong to get this treatment?" All the persons or so called friends I though loved and cared for me really don't.

They're offering overtime tonight but I'm so ready to go home. I am not interested in staying past the time they originally scheduled me for.
Oluwakemi

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